It has been a good while since I have looked at this screen.
It’s not that I haven’t wanted to blog but it seemed just not on the priority list. These past two weeks have probably been the most stressful I have ever experienced. I am happy that I am not feeling the weight I was about exactly a week ago. And now as I sit on my patio it does feel like it was a long time ago, maybe that is a bonus of being really stressed out, once it’s over it feels like it was forever ago. As many of you know this past week my daddy had surgery for cancer. Now in my daddy’s situation we were blessed because it was caught early, but the surgery that he went in for was quite massive not just a little snip here and a little snip there but it was pretty substantial. I thought that once my dad had the surgery I would be much better, the stress would be gone and he would be on the road to recovery, I was wrong. I felt the complete opposite, I was more stressed than I had felt and more sad that I had been. I probably cried at least once a day if not more. Poor Lane.
I now definitely feel more like myself. I know my dad is slowly healing and my mom and brother are taking wonderful care of him and I will see him soon! But in the midst of these overwhelming feelings, I remembered something that I had heard a few months ago from another cancer survivor. I was at the Life Women Conference and a women named Holly Wagner was speaking about her personal experience with cancer, but she said something that gave me perspective late last week. She had said that the things we go through in life are not about us but it’s about experiencing them so when other people we know go through similar situations we have the ability to help them, encourage them, prayer for them whatever they need we are there. Remembering this simple perspective gave me such peace. I have been reminded by the Lord that if we can handle small things He can entrust will big things and with that encouragement I was overjoyed as I walked through the last few days. This last 10 months have been incredible! I wouldn’t change a thing! I believe that the Lord is preparing Lane and I for an abundant life and with that probably will come some sort of stress and anxiety but I know without a doubt that his plan is never something I can’t handle. My greatest joy out of this situation would be that someone could see the hope of Jesus shinning through and I could help someone come to find that hope too.
Thank you for your continued prayers for my family, they do not go unnoticed.
ta ta for now xo.